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How did I get here?

I walked the path laid out before me as a child.

I played by all the rules that society told me to follow.

Wait until you see your pot of gold they proclaimed.

They lied.

There is no pot of gold waiting, just another turn.

Turns that wind through birth and death and marriage and divorce and…passion?

Slowly over time, I try to walk back but I just can’t remember how I got here.

Where am I?

What have I become?

What do I do now with what is left of my life?

I am lost.



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I am chugging along and making progress when…

The history of our people catches up to me and…

I stop, struggling to find the will to move forward and achieve what should rightfully be mine?

Where I live the chairs are being rearranged.

Changed before my eyes like a flock of birds taking off for flight…

And the government tells me I am in a better place and tells me that the money is pouring in and that jobs are falling like manna from heaven to hide the…


I long to be free, long to feel safe

Long for wealth that is continual, gently, ever so slowly given to others.

Am I never to get ahead?

Am I always to smile and nod like everything is alright to keep the powers at bay?


Today I will don a skin cocoa brown around a broken soul.

I will struggle again.


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Ah, my friend.

The friend who pushes and prods to force out the emotions I choose to keep in.

The part of me that is forced to wear a smile because to not is threatening because of Black Skin.

The area of me that harbors the real me, protects the real me from harm.

How can I let go of you?

You have been more loyal to me than the country that everyday looks for the reason to…

Closer than the those who would rather that people of color just disappear like fog on a Monday morning.

Ah, anger, my friend.

Igbo Diet: Oha Soup

making oha soupRoughly 80% of Blacks brought over from Africa who came in through the Carolinas have ancestry going back to the Igbo in West Africa. This ethnic group currently resides in Nigeria. This group is very important to me because I have DNA linked to it. I have appended a recipe from this tribe courtesy of allnigerianfoods.com. Enjoy.

The Ingredients For Oha Soup

Serving (6×2)
Oha leaves (as required)
Cocoa yam (see the video below)(about 15 to 20 medium sizes)
2kg Meat of choice (chicken, assorted, beef, goat meat, turkey)
600g Dry fish or mangala
Maggi (seasoning) 2 to 4 cubes
Ground crayfish (1 cups)
A handful of Uziza leaves (optional)
1 big Stock fish head
Palm oil 200-250ml
3-4 tablespoons of ofor or achi (as alternative thickener)
Ogiri (local ingredients)
salt and pepper to taste

Whenever I am making soups with cocoa yam, I chose to buy a small quantity of ofor or achi to supplement insufficiency (just in case) maybe about 1 or 2 tablespoons

How To Prepare Oha (ora) Nigerian Soup

Time: About seventy minutes

Wash the cocoa yam with just water and start cooking, cook until it is soft (you can check with your fingers), then peel off the outer back and pound with a mortar and pestle, the normal traditional way. Grind crayfish and fresh pepper (I like to use fresh pepper for most Nigerian foods)

Pluck off the Uha leaves from the stem and slice with a kitchen knife, I like to shred the leaves with my fingers the exact way I learned from my mother (You will find how this is done from the video below, this method will ensure that the leaves are not shredded to tiny bits).

In case you want to slice with a kitchen knife just to ease up the process be sure not to slice into very tiny bits. See the uha soup image above

Parboil meat with the necessary ingredients, allow to cook for ten to fifteen minutes before adding the hot-water-washed dry fish and, (we use hot water to soak and wash dry fish/stock fish just to make sure the accompanying sand is washed off). Add the stock fish and cook until it is tender,

Add more water then add red oil (palm oil), ground crayfish, maggi, salt and pepper to taste. Stir and allow boiling. At this point it should give a good soupy taste (even though it would be watery)

Then add the pounded cocoa yam as you can find in the video below (at this point you can add the ground egusi if you choose to make oha soup with egusi, which is also a very tasty recipe. Remember I told you that either egusi, achi or cocoa yam can serve as the thickener for this popular Igbo soup).
Boiling oha soup
Also add the ogiri at this point.

Stir; allow to dissolve before adding the sliced uziza leaves then uha leave should follow after a minute. Stir and cook for another 3 to 5 minutes and you just made a very delicious oha soup (ofe ora).
making oha soup
Serve with eba, fufu or pounded yam.

Bread Dough Cake

From A Domestic Cookbook

  • One pint light bread dough
  • 3 eggs
  • 2 cups sugar
  • 1 cup butter
  • Dried fruit or Carraway seeds

Stir well place in well buttered baking pan. Let rise, and bake in moderate heat.

Older recipes are very tough to follow even if published as they lack the details of modern recipes.

Gardening made Simple…


4 Step to Success

Gardening is a great way to add fresh veggies and fruit to your diet. But most people think they can grow anything. EVERYONE can grow something. I am going to give you my foolproof method. This will work in pots as well so my apartment dwellers you too can have fresh food.

Step 1. Mark and dig out a 4 foot by 4 foot square plot in sunny to mixed shade.

That is it. The rule of thumb here is to not garden more than you can handle. Most people have jobs, families, social lives. This is meant to be fun not a chore. Remember there are stores and markets for a reason. So mark out at 4×4 area and remove the sod. Dig down 6 to 19 inches and turnover.

Step 2. Add the shit that makes Plants grow

OK now go to the garden center or hardware store. Get one 10 pound bag or peat moss, one block of Promix (it must be Promix and buy a full block, not a bag), and one 20 pound bag of manure (doesn’t matter what you use, I prefer cow dung). Using a tarp and a shovel remove the dirt you just turned from the garden and add the bags of amendments. This is the key, you have to mix everything thoroughly. Add the soil back to the garden and water. Cover and leave for 48 hours. (Hell leave until next weekend the key thing is to let it settle and get rid of air pockets that rot roots)

Step 3. Buy plants or seeds

Before we begin I want to stress something here. Plant what you will eat. There is nothing wrong with planting a little that goes to folks who like a plant but don’t have time to garden. I have a friend who loves my zucchini, I hate it, I grow it for my friend. But friend if you hate salad, don’t grow it. I grew salad for years and years because it was “healthy”, but I rarely ate it. This year it will not be in my garden. Plant what you love to eat.

Remember those know it all’s who say don’t plant too close. Yeah, we are going to ignore them. We want density to keep the light and wind away from the soil which means you water less. If you are growing a larger plant like a pumpkin (And why would you fucking do this its 4×4 you idiot) then you need space. (and a full-size garden dumb ass) The plants will self-select and the stronger plants will thrive and the weak plants will die.

But seed or plants? Depends on your level of commitments. For plants like lettuce or carrots sow a thick seedbed. Literally overseed the part of the garden you want that plant in, water cover with some straw and wait. Now I live in Minnesota. Our growing season is short. I grew tired of failed starts indoors so I buy the vast majority of my plants as starts or in the case of tomatoes, large bushes. My preference is more practical than anything else. I want to maximize the amount of food. And this method does just that.

Secret: Sometimes I let tomatoes drop in the fall and rot. I get FREE repeat plants that are more tolerant to my climate!

Step 4. Only water when the leaves look limp!

Most gardener’s fail because of  overwatering. Period. Don’t over water plants. Think of the meadows. God doesn’t send down rain every evening at 6pm. Plants that get frequent watering have thin stems and very shallow root systems that rot easily. Water once a week. Don’t drench, just a good drink.

Leave the plants alone!!

Leave them the fuck alone…OK… you are not helping them by poking at them. Unless you are checking for disease. (and you should) or harvesting leaves them alone. Just enjoy watching them grow. If you need to eat fresh veggies quick use the markets or buy plants versus seeds.

Gardening should be a low maintenance hobby that is really fun. This plan will rock your garden and impress friends and family!